Any Given Sunday

3 things about that saying. 1, its sunday right now. 2, the movie Any Given Sunday is on tv right now. and 3, I just flipped to a channel and they said that. Kind of a trip

I leanred something today that kind of tripped me out too. I guess a while back, Laura Bush, the presidents wife, killed a guy. She ran a stop sign and hit him and he died. Im really excited to see the movie "W". looks pretty good.

I had a fun weekend this weekend. Kicked it at Stout, went out a couple nights, it was tiiiiiight. Kind of met this really cute girl, but stupid adam didnt introduce me to her. Apparently he knows her really well. Oh well, theres always next time.

My teeth feel like they have to be brushed again.

Going home next weekend and so is Brian. That will be tight. Could also have a job interview which would be money. Because I need money. If I leave Stout, I gotta buy a computer n shit and I want to get a Mac because they are sick. I want to get an iPhone too. those are raw. but i dont really need a new phone, so whatevs.

so bored right now, just thought about writing stuff.

I watched the debate on friday night, it was pretty good. Its weird getting into politics. But Obama killed it and it seemed like McCain was just trying to bully him because he knew he wasnt winning the debate. Tried talking to my brother about it but he just said I hated white people and that my opinion was scewed. I dont hate white people, i just think Obama would be a much better president than McCain.

Im pretty sure my body got sick from me taking some of this whey protiend stuff. Apparently it can fuck with your kindeys major, and I think it did that. Still recovering for sure. I can feel it. Yuck.

Watchin this show about this black dude who find out who killed his brother and brings them to justice like 43 years later. Pretty sweet. Way to go this black guy. I think his name is Thomas Moore. Yup sure is.

Slept so good this weekend.

9 o clock right now and I should be doing this homework right now but its so long that I dont even want to get it started. Fuck it , here i go. Head first riiiiiiight

peace. later on this week i shall return

We ball till we fal, hit the mall, after we, hit dont call, we fill your lives, with nothin but lies....

and I would like to apologize.

I want to apologize for the readers who read my blog like 2 blogs ago? not this one, or the last one, but the one after that. where i had that big long rant about shit. Stuff was just on my mind and alot of things were going on in my head, and it probably wasnt the best time to write something. So I apologize for that.

Moving on.

Just got back from being out with some buddies. Had a good time, shared some laughs, shared some tears. Not really the tears part, but laughs for sure. I've kind of realized that it is hard for me to open up to people here at Stout. I was thinking about it tonight, and I dont really know why it is. I have one hypothesis though. I think its because I dont have really super close friends here. Yeah ive got my boys Adam and Kyle, but I cant really open up to them fully. Im almost afraid to? Im afraid of the rejection because I see myself as so much different from everyone else that Im afraid I'll be cast out as the weird dude or the hella excentric dude, and I dont want some negative lable like that. No one does. I kind of compared tonight with last weekend in that I was opening up to people way easier last weekend because I was around my super close group of friends. 3 of our original 6 were there(me, brady, andrew, and mark. whereas the original 6 was me, brady, mark, brian, peter, and andrew.) and I can totally be myself around all those dudes because I know no matter what, they are going to accept me. Ha, that got me a little choked up, but its true. And being with them last weekend really helped me branch out and be more social than I ever really have been. I caught myself going up to really cute random girls and talking to them. I DONT DO THAT. haha im one of the most shy dudes ever. Thats another huge reason I want to go to the U so I can branch out more and be the person that I really want to be.

Im not trying to knock all my buddies here by any means. I love all my friends here, its just that they arent my good buddies from home and they never could be. It sucks because I really want to be that person here at Stout, but it almost feels like something is holding me back? I dont really know. Who knows. Who knows feelings. Feelings. Crazyness.

Man, writing that makes me want to go back to 8th grade and just skate all day. Those were the days man. Its a trip just thinking about it. What I wouldnt do for the original 6 to just go on a skate trip to all our old spots. damn. And just kick it at peters house and listen to music on his computer. He always had the dopest computer. and that badass couch downstairs. his pool and mini haha. shit was rad. I miss that dude. peter if your reading this, COME HOME MAN! I know you cant with school and stuff. fuuuck.

man, some of these blogs bring me down. i just think about shit all the time and it all builds up and i have to write it. its really helped me though. and you can never be mad at help. Ha. Can you imagine is someone was pissed that someone else helped them? I wouldnt understand that.

I wonder how max is doing? he doesnt update his blog as much as I would like, but that means he is having an awesome time which I fuckin love.

talked to brian for a while tonight, that was tight. He always says some weird ass shit, but always so funny and cheers me up. hillarious. he is going home next weekend and so will I so I look forward to kickin it with him alot. going to the U would be fun. hopefully no ass kicking will be involved, however.

For this next clip, I kind of want to be straight forward with it, and kind of dont. I dont think im going to. I ran into someone recently and they were with someone that I didnt approve of and it sort of made me angry. Not that this person needs my approval for anything and they are by all means free to do whatever they want, I just didnt agree with their choice of person. But I just thought, hey, they missed out on someone else who is way better than this new person and they probably know it, so im just gonna let them do their own thing and ill do mine. I hope that was subtle enough, if not, im sure i will have a good talking to in the coming weeks.

man writing this stuff feels good.

i just get weird vibes from people i dont know at Stout. Where as at the U, all of the people were way friendly. I know, maybe my opinion is scewed because I want to go there so badly, but then again what if I am absolutely right? once again, who knows.

thats about all I got off the top of the dome right now.

I can holler late if you would like? let me knowwwww.

Nothin left for me to do, but DANCE!

So random that that song is on my mind right now. I dont know if my mind/body is subconciously telling me to get up and get down, or just another one of those random songs that come out of knowhere and get stuck in my head from time to time. Sometimes, later in the day, I will hear that very song on the radio. Twilight Zone steez right there.

Went to Costco today which was rad, got some stuff im excited to eat/use. Dad took me out there, which is always nice because he picks up the tab.

Talked to my main man, my brotha from anotha motha, my home skillet, the beez knees, the cats pajama's, the russian jew of the krew himself, MAX! WHAAAAAT!

Dude straight called me from Italy. Some crazy number too, like 80 digits. I was all, "Who could this be?!" and then my brain was all, "It's Max!" So I answered and low and behold, my brain was correct. We talked about some sweet stuff, I could hear Italy sounds in the background. And Italy sounded pretty sweet. Not only what Max says about it, but what I literally heard in the background while on the phone with Max. Heard some dude making a pizza, someone slurping spaghetti, I even heard an Italian dude in a suit actually scratch his chest hair that was poking out. It was gnarly.

But yeah, good to hear from max as always. He said he got chocked up when I was talking about him in my last blog, which made a brother feel good. I had to cut the convo short because my dad had his undies in a bundle about going to Costco. I gave him a swift talking to, however. So dont loose sleep over that.

We had a wild night on campus on Friday night. Shit got insane. I dont want to go into it really, so if you are dying to know, get at me on facebook or sometheeen.

Ive gotta write this paper by tomorrow i think, but I dont know if it is due at midnight tonight, or midnight tomorrow. FUuuuck.

What else is up......ummmm.....had to drive back this weekend to gie my mom her car back, but it turns out I dont have to yet. And im hella low on gas, and it is crazy expensive to fill that ford explorer up. I heard that oil prices are going down, yet the price of gas isn't going down with it? Whats up with that. I dont think we are running out of oil, I just think those oil company big wigs are hiking up the prices so they can send their sons and daugters to college. And the prices wont go down because the big wigs dont want to go back to earning less money. Fuckin A.

The Office starts up this week. For sure excited to watch. and 30 Rock. so funny. Scrubs is on ABC now though, and I heard JD and Carla are leaving. I got heavy into that show, then just got hella sick of it. It is always so powerful at the end. Its crazy. The Janitor is funny though.

Im gonna go dive head first into some cherry pie. No, for real, my dad got this giant cherry pie and its in the back yard and im gonna go jump in it.

Ill let you know how it goes.


p.s. he didnt really get a giant cherry pie, he got a little one and im gonna go grub on it right now. Wish me luck.

Right when things are looking up...

i get pulled back down to earth. Things were really looking up for a while. Started talking to this girl Audrey who is awesome and funny and smart and gorgeous and a blast to talk to and hang out with. Then I get the news that I've gotta give my mom her car back. I have been using it since the summer when my brother and I took his car back to Virginia. So now not only will I not be able to go home as much, It puts a limit on the job search. Although, I could get a job writing for the school paper, which would kill 2 birds with 1 stone. Having a job, and being paid to write. Which would be sweet. So I have to go home tomorrow and meet with My Mom, Step Dad, and Dad and talk about how we could finance another car. God Damit I hate money. Its the root of all evil. I hate how it can either make or break your day. Your mood depends on how much money you have. An amount of something. Its ridiculous. For the longest time I have wanted to just not even think about it, but because of the way I was raised and how my family handles it, I have to face something head on that I hate. I know so many people who dont have to worry about a thing because they have so much of it, and like everyone else who doesn't have as much as they would like, it irritates me. Im not jealous by any means, its just the fact that they have never had to struggle to get it. My dad is having a tough time paying the house payment, how is he gonna pay for another car? I just wish he would sue that realtor that fucked him over. It would solve so many more problems of ours, but dude is too proud to do that. "he will get his" is what he says when I bring it up to him. So why dont you give it to him?! Im thinking about filling the papers myelf because im so sick and tired of this. My family has made so many bad decisions with money, it sickens me to even think about them. It makes me want to be as frugal with money as I can be when I get older. Now I know where Mark is coming from. He's a smart ass dude. He shall be my financial consultant. For free. I should really be doing homework, but all this stuff is on my mind and its hard to read about things when your head is filled with a problem that you cant fix immediatley.

Facebook is annoying me with some things, so I e mailed someone about a problem I've been having and hopefully they give me a sweet answer. I get updates all the time of someone I cant be getting updates about all the time. So I hit them up to see if they had an answer for me.

I wish I was in Italy with Max. Im still so happy for him. I wish I was there so I could just get away from everything and hang out with one of my best friends and enjoy stuff with him. We would have such an awesome time. I hope none of that sounds homosexual. I saw some of his pictures and they are some of the coolest things I have ever seen. He takes pictures of the food he makes and it all looks so good. He should be a chef. Makes such good sandwiches on the daily, I wish I had one on me right now. That would be legit.

Man, I really hope I get into the U of M. A change of scenory/scenary would help so much right now. Just be somewhere familiar. With familiar people. And my dog. I saw this video today of this golden retriever trapped in a tent today, shit was hillarious. Reminded me of Tank. Im glad I get to see him again though, thats for sure.

I just wish I was with all my buddies right now, kickin it at Pats or something. Around the bonfire. Bullshittin about everything. I could just vent to all of them instead of this blog. So much stuff that I wish I could just talk to the krew about right now. Nas was right, Life's a Bitch and then ya die.

I guess the only thing I can really look forward to is getting together with Audrey this weekend, seeing Tank, and everything turning around for the better.

But until then America, we shall part.

Things Im Hyped ON

Man, i really wish i would have stuck with that. I think i got dumped soon after that post, so I fell off. My bad. Ill keep trying to do it every week or so.

and now that i know how to post pictures, it will be way more awesome.

1. Undrcrwn "O Face" Shirt. (above)

I love all undrcrwn designs. They are so creative with their drawings and really base all their designs around hip hop and basketball, which im totally into. So its sick. Go get some of their stuff. But be careful, wash it in hot water. It shrinks in cold. so bummed.

2. Working Out

Getting back into workout mode is always nice and you feel better about yourself. So its tight.

3. Transfering to the U?

Im pretty sure im doing that, as you may know. So im hyped on that decision.

Thats all i got for now. 2 posts in one day. nice.

Back in the New York Mood.

Kickin it in my room right now. I kind of want to watch that scary ass movie Pet Cemetary. Shit is raw.

Workin out a little bit. Might go on a run later. I dont have shit to do on M/W/F's so I might as well get in better shape, nahmsayin?

Still havent really figured anything out for this weekend with Shannon, hoping to get that sewn up today.

Heard from Max today and read his blog. So happy for that dude. I know he is gonna have an awesome time, and im glad such a good dude got to go. He deserves it.

Gotta go home tomorrow and go to those meetings on friday and monday. Which reminds me I have to call over there and let them know im coming.

Ill do it tonight, or tomorrow. i dont know how late they are open. yikes.

Gotta get some homework done. Write a paper on 3 news articles. something like that.

Hopefully I get a job with the school paper, that would be money. Havent heard back from the head of it yet though, so ill shoot him another e mail and see if he gets back to me or not.

Man, this entry is hella boring. sorry about that.

I gotta do work though, I might holler later if i hear from the head of the paper and hopefully Shannon.

WORD

Girl Talk

Listening to his album Feed The Children right now. So sick. All of his albums are so sick. So talented. If your reading this, go get all of his albums.

just dropped my monday-wednesday class, so now I only have classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays, for 4 hours. I have 3 online classes. 14 credits. So money.

I am so psyched about Girl Talk that I felt like I had to post something.

I'll be back later

Crusin' down the street in my '6 4

Kickin it at home right now. Lovin it. Trying to get all this stuff figured out for the U of M. Ive got meetings i have to go to this coming friday and following monday, so i've got my next weekend all planned out already.

trynda drop this monday-wednesday class so I can go to that meeting on monday. it would be clutch and i dont think it will be a problem, but ive gotta pick up another class. I shot an e mail to the instructor and she hasnt gotten back to me yet. It would be for a critical writing class online, and i love to do that shit. so its a win-win, hopefully she lets me in.

tank jjust jumped up onto my lap, so its getting really hard to type. so funny. i love this dog. he keeps licking his paws though, which isnt good. sometimes he will do it all night, which gets really annoying.

one of my professors read an assingment i did for his class and he suggested that i try to get a job with the school paper. That would be so sweet.

still havent heard from max on how italy is, but its probably sweet since i havent heard from him. meaning he is to busy having fun, which is awesome.

already watched the office season 4 on dvd. 20 minutes of bloopes=so money.

kicked it with my dad alot this weekend, hopefully even more next weekend. that man needs a few days off, and soon.

tank is still on my lap. his sternum is digging into the top of my thigh, and he has his head wrapped around my body. the other day he was looking into our gas fireplace that has glass on the front of it, and his tail started wagging. so i was like, "what are you looking at?" and i caught a glimpse of his eyes staring at me through the reflection. so he was looking at me through the reflection. so funny. he is one of the smartest dogs ever, its insane.

i dont really want to go back to school, but it should be sweet once i get this class dropped. only having class on tuesdays and thursdays for 4 hours will be awesome. some people might not think so, but im over it. 14 credits is pretty legit, i just dont walk to class as often as they do. suckaaa's.

im hanging out with this girl Shannon this coming weekend. I havent kicked it with her for like a year and a half. i hope it doesnt fall through, im really looking forward to seeing her. she is awesome. We finally just started talking to eachother again. I remember the last time i talked to her on the phone was freshman year at st. marys. I messed up saying her last name, and i think she was mad about it. i felt like a prick. still do, but i've got it figured out now, so hopefully all is well. I think we are making dinner? those are the plans as of right now.

im excited about coming home again in 4 days. does a number on the wallet though, driving that ford explorer around. so much gas money.

i went to old navy last night and picked up some stuff. they have really sweet things for hella cheap there. same company as banana republic and GAP. bet you didnt know that, huh? for reals.

i really like my government teacher, he seems like a cool dude. my creative writing teacher is a loud talker and pretty old, but hopefully he is cool. sounds like alot of writing for that class, but its something i like to do so im up for the challenge.

i gotta find a job! or an internship! hopefully an internship when i come back in spring. I hope i get into the U. i dont know what i will do if i dont. Last time i applied the GPA requirement was like a 2.5, and im above that, so hopefully im good. Ive gotta go to the highschool next weekend and get my transcripts sent over there.

alot of things to do. i should write these in my planner.

i'll holler earlier than before.

PAAAAEEEEEECCEEE

My Life.

So yeah, turns out i didnt get into the Industrial Design program here at Stout. I dont know if i mentioned that before, but its for sure a set back.

So i could very well be dropping out this semester and taking the rest of the semester off and going to the U of M in the spring. Or, finish the semester, and transfer in the spring.

At the U, there are way more options for me. I can build my own major, which is awesome because there are a few different things i want to study there for sure.

So it has been a stressful day to say the least. Lot of convo's with the folks, talked to my brother, a couple close buddies. Man i miss home.

Commuting everday would be kind of wack, but do able i guess.

It would be sweet to get a place with max and mark downtown or something.

so stressed.

Gummy Ache

Max and I made that term up one night when we were grubbin on gummy worms. he was like, dont eat to many of those, you will get a stomach ache. and I was like, a gummy ache? and we started laughing super hard. so funny. Im gonna miss that dude for sure. fuuuuck

so many funny stories of him and I. I want to write about one like every week. It will be an instalment called, "Stories to the MAX!" YEAH! GNAR! RADICAL! BRO! It will be sweet, you readers in reader world wont regret it.

man, that walmart commercial was corny as fuck.

I hung out with krissy tonight which is always wonderful. She dyed her hair brown, and looks absolutley gorgeous as usual. I went to her place, met some of her friends, and she came over here and I showed her the bachelor pad. It was a good time. I hope we stay close. I feel like i act weird around her. But if i think that way, i will act weird. So i gotta be myself. right? right.

we should draft some more readers from reader world, so i know what im writing gets read. wow, say that outloud and tell me its not a tounge twister...

this food tech show is tight. they are eating saltine(spelling) crakers, and trynda eat 6 in 60 seconds. it looks tough.

what i dont get it, how the word "tough" makes an F sound. is it the 'gh'? like 'ph'? english is weird.

My first class isnt until 1220, so thats pretty money. its my earliest class of the semester. and no classes on friday. but im taking 2 online classes. so thats kind of lame, but whatevs. online classes are pretty money.

Thats all i got on this side of the pond, so im gonna cruise. Ill holler tomorrow! yup! first day!

12:34 a.m.

It seems whenever i look at a clock, its always either 12:34 am or 12:34 pm, which is weird. It just turned to 12:35, so thats over.

I need to go get my iPod from my car and upload that shit onto my itunes on this baby.

Its so weird, I'll get hella home sick at random ass times! I was eating earlier with my buddy kyle and one of his football buddies, and I was almost done, but couldnt finish because i started to feel really sick. I went into my room and started crying my eyes out. I called my dad and talked to him for a good 15 min, then called my mom and did the same thing. Luckily, one of my favorite shows was on when i got done talking to her, so that calmed me down. Then i started kickin it with Kyle, and everything has been good since.

I was/am just super bummed that I really didnt get to say goodbye to my dad. He has been working at the Republican Convention, as I most likely mentioned earlier, and He couldnt help me move in. And my dad and I have gotten really close over the past 8 years, and it was tough for me to not have him here. Also my dog i miss alot, but he most likely has forgot me until i go back and play with him.

Talked to my brother today, so that was awesome.

My back is killing me right now. I was sitting all slouched over and am currently sitting up straight and it hurts for some reason? weird things.

Ive been thinking about talking a Bayer asprin everyday because it thins out your blood and reduces cholestoral. Which are both good for your heart, and my family has a history of heart problems. People say you should ask your doctor about it first, and I will probably do that before I start anything.

Dave Chapelle is so fuckin funny. I was watching his standup the other day and he was talking about crack heads and he goes, "This one time, this crack head broke into my car. And the only thing he took, was this candy bar i had sitting on the front seat. So i went walking around looking for a crakhead with chocolate all on his face and I found him and I went up to him and said, 'ay man whats all that chocolate on your face from?' and the crackhead was like 'chocolate?....this is doo doo baby!'"

So funny. he tells it way better, but either way, you get the point.

Im hella tired and watching I Love Money. Im gonna lay in bed and watch it and crash.

Ill post tomorrow and holler. Hopefully I can get through tomorrow without balling my eyes out!